「私はだれ?あなたはだれ?」「私は私。私はあなたの心の中にいる私。」「あなたはあなた。あなたは私の心の中にいるあなた。」"Who am I? Who are you?" "I am I.I am the I who is inside your heart." "You are you.You are the you who is inside my heart."
「ここはどこ?ここは私の心の中にいるあなたの心。そして、あなたの心の中にいる私の心。」"Where is this?This is my heart which is inside your heart. And your heart which is inside my heart."
「あなたは何が怖い?」「自分が嫌われること?そうだ、捨てられたんだ。嫌われたんだ。嫌われたらどうしよう。どうしたらいいんだろう。」"What are you scared of?" "Of myself being hated? Yes, I was thrown away. I was hated. What should I do if I'm hated? What do I have to do??"
「なぜそんなことをやるの?」「みんながやれっていうんだから。みんなのためだ。みんなのためだからいいんじゃないか?そうすればみんなにほめてくれる。大事にしてくれるんだ。」「それは結局自分のためじゃないか?みんなに認められるためにやってるんじゃないの?幸せになるために、偽りの幸せを得るためじゃないの?」 「あなたも同じでしょう?」"Why do you do these things?" "Because everyone asks me to do them. It's for them. It's okay because it's for them right? If I do them, everyone would praise me. Everyone would be good to me." "In the end, isn't that for your own sake? Just to be recognized by everyone? To be happy, to gain a false happiness?" "Aren't you the same?"
「他人の中に自分を求めているのね?一人になるのはこわいんでしょう?他人と一緒に自分もいなくなるから、怖いんでしょう?」"So you're trying to find yourself in other people? Because you're afraid of being alone? Because you are afraid that when they disappear, you would disappear too?"
「私はだれ?私は私。私は今までの時間とほかの人たちの繋がりによって今の私になったの。人とのふれあいと時間の流れが私を変えていく。」「いいえ、それは本当のあなたじゃない。あなたはほかにもいるの。ただ見たくないだけ。いなくなるかもしれないから。ほかの人の心から消えてしまうかもしれないから。消えてしまうのが怖いんだろう?」"Who am I? I am me. I have become me through the time spent and the relationship I have build up with other people. I am changed by the flow of time and the communication I have with other people." "No, that is not the real you. There is more than one you. You just don't want to see it. Because they might disappear. Because you might disappear from the hearts of other people. You are afraid of disappearing, right?"
「そう、私が必要だからここにいる。ほかの人が望んでいるからここにいる。でも、私は死にたい。欲しいものは絶望。無へと帰りたい。でも、みんな返してくれない。みんなは必要だから返してくれない。私、みんなに捨てられるの?いなくなるの?今は怖い。」"Yes, I am here because I am needed. I am here because people want me to be here. But, I want to die. I wish for despair. I want to go back to nothingness. But, they don't let me. They don't let me because they need me. Would I be thrown away? Would I disappear? I am afraid now."
「認められようと演じている自分は本当の自分ではないのよ。私はこうして幸せなの?幸せなの。幸せなの?いや、幸せなんかじゃない。本当の自分じゃない。そう思い込んでるだけなの。」「そうしなきゃ、私たちは生きていけないのか?一緒にいないと怖いんだ。不安なの。」"The me that is always acting to earn recognition is not the real me. Am I happy like this? I am happy. Am I happy? No, this is no happiness. It is not the real me. I'm just under the impression that I'm happy." "We can't live on if we don't do that? We are afraid when we are not together with someone else. We become uneasy."
「現実って何だ?」「あなたの世界よ。時間と空間と他人とともにある君自身の世界のことだ。」「君がどう受け止め、どう認めるかは君自身が決める世界だ。」「今ただ与えられるあなたの世界よ。」「どうしようもないあなたの世界。」「いや、もう全て決まりきっている世界だろう?」「違うわ、あなたが決めた世界なのよ。君の心がそうと決めている世界なのだ。」"What is reality?" "It is your world. It is your own world where time and space and other people exist mutually." "It is a world in which the way you accept and respond to things decide the way things are." "It is your world which is simply given now" "It is your world that no one can do anything about." "No, it's a world where everything is already decided, isn't it?" "No, it's not. It is a world that you have decided. It is a world that your heart decides."
「生きることも、死ぬこともあなた自身が決めることなのよ。自分の弱い心を守るために。自分の快楽を守るために。閉塞された空間では、あなた一人の世界では他の人は生きていけないもの。でも、あなたは世界の、自分を取り巻く世界の閉塞を願った。嫌いなものは排除し、より孤独な世界を願った、あなた自身の心。それが導き出された小さな心の安らぎの世界。」"Living and dying is your own decision. To protect your weak heart. To protect your own pleasure. In a closed space, your own world, other people can't live. But you wished for the closure of the world surrounding you. You remove the things that you don't like, and wished for a more lonely world, which is your own heart. That is the peaceful world of a small heart that has been guided by yourself."
This is some of the "interviews" in the 2nd last episode of Neon Genesis Evangelion which makes you think a lot about yourself. I'm sure everyone can find themselves in one of these passages. If you can't, that means you are free of the chains of modern civilization. If you don't understand it, you should watch the anime for yourself. But I don't really recommend it lar.. not that nice an anime.. Overall, I give Eva a 7/10. The best part is only the part where it makes you think a lot about yourself at the end. Well, I haven't watched the movie, End of Evangelion though. There should be more answers in that movie..
これらはエヴァンゲリオンのアニメの25話にあった「面談会」の一部。自分によく考えさせた、自分のことをね。皆は必ずこれらの言葉の中で自分が見つけられるはず。見つけられなかったら、それはあなたが近代文明の考え方から抜かれているということを意味するだろう。分からなかったら、自分でこのアニメを見るべきだと思う。でも、お勧めというほどではない。そんなによいアニメではないと思う。全般的には、エヴァには7/10しか点をあげられないね。まあ、自分に考えさせたことはとてもよかったと思いますが。でも、映画の End of Evangelion はまだ見てない。多分それには答えがもっとある。
Friday, November 30, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
アイドルマスター無敵
アイドルマスター超はまりました。どうしよう。。うん、機会があったら、是非アイドルマスターのアニメ見てください。超お勧めですよ。僕なんかもう何回も何回も再生しちゃった。好きなシーンを見るたびに元気になっちゃう。僕、もうだめです。。だれか助けて!天海春香から助けてください!
うん、また日本語でアイドルマスターのレビュー書こうか。まずは、アイドルマスターってなんだろう?ふん、XBoxでは確かにアイドル育てのようなゲームですよね。グラビアとかデビューとかやって。。でも、僕が話してるのはそのアニメ、アイドルマスターゼノグロシアのことだよ。このアニメではアイドルという重力を操れるロボットが登場する。そして、これに乗ってるパイロットというのがアイドルマスター。ただ、アイドルは女性だけを乗らせる、それにきちょうめん。。
ここで、ちょっとアイドルという外来語の使い方を話させてもらう。元々アイドルという言葉は崇拝された神以外のものをいうのですが、最近、芸能人のことを示すようになった。まあ、人気の芸能人は崇拝されるとも言えるか。。でも、とにかく意味が外れてます。別にそんなに気にしなくてもいいけど、本当の意味を知っておくべきだと思うね。
はい、アイドルマスターの話に戻る。アイドルマスターが好きだと言ったら、多分なぜと聞かれるだろう。インターネットでもあまり画像ないし、プラモデルなんかも売ってない。全然人気アニメじゃない。。まあ、僕なりには一番好きなところはゼノグロシアの歌。始めの歌とAMVを見るともうわくわくする。そして、最後の歌もぴったりのタイミングに入って、緊張感が上がる。
二つ目はゼノグロシアの全人物のそれぞれの成長と暖かい関係。主人公のセリフ「必要なの
はほんのちょっとの勇気と強い気持ち」はもう僕の心に刻まれてる。他にセリフはいくらでもある。。まあ、春香ちゃんはともかく、他の人物も面白くて、性格が強い。それに、アイドルもそれぞれの性格と心を持ってる。ポイ捨てのガンダムよりは何倍も強い印象をもたらす。
感動的なところもギャグのところもすごく自然で、心に直接伝わる。前にも言ったように、日曜日にアイドルマスターの最終回を見た。エンディングはとても満足だった。そして、この26話を2回も見終わって、いまだに文句なし。確かに戦闘シーンとかはあまり激しくないが、ゼノグロシアはそれを面白くて、思いがけないプロットで補う。空から始まったわりにはこんな豊かなプロットってちょっとがっかりだった。サブの供給者もこのことに驚嘆した。
今まで見てきたアニメは15個ほどありますが、このアニメが僕に一番強い印象を残した。単な
る言葉ではとても伝えられない。多分他の人にはあまり面白くないかもしれない。でも、僕にとってはとてもよいアニメだと思う。
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Monday, November 26, 2007
Idolm@ster Xenoglossia
Idolm@ster Xenoglossia.. This anime has officially entered my best animes list(Eh, I had a list?)! It's not a very popular anime actually. It's more popular as an Xbox game, in which you guide the girls to become top idols.. Right.. But in the anime, it is a whole different story. It's about girls piloting robots! What's so special about that, you ask? Well, first of all, the name of the robot is Idol(shows how ignorant Japanese are of native usage of English words), an armored mecha which is built around a Core capable of controlling gravity. Ah, I revealed too much..heh..Secondly, the robots only let girls pilot them(eh, cheeky robots? lol). But not just any girl, too.(Picky robots) The pilots are called Idolmasters(as the title suggests) So yeah, girl power! ^^;
Well, to be truly honest, the main attraction is of course the girls.. The girls are fun and cute, and their pure friendship is just plain beautiful. However, somehow I feel that in this anime, this very special anime, the robots are not left out(unlike in Gundam Series). You feel like you know them very well and understand them. In Gundam, I feel like they're scrap metal.. once defeated, they're just thrown away and replaced.
My personal favourite (Idol) robot, Prometheus 4, codename Tempestas, who only managed to show off his mecha body in 1 episode and got his whole armor fried trying to protect two girls. It is true that the battle scenes are not as cool as in Gundam and other mecha animes. The best battle scenes I have seen yet is in Eureka Seven. However, Idolm@ster covers it well with many unexpected twists and makes you want to see more. Everytime I watch the next episode, just the opening prologue and Opening Song(which is the first one on the player on the right) is enough to get you high with tension and ecstasy.I personally like the Ending Song and First Opening Song, but overall, all 3 songs are very nice and encouraging.
And the main Idol and Idolmaster, Prometheus 1(first Idol found), Imber, and Haruka Amami(the one on the right). Haruka's character is interesting and delightful. A very true and honest role model of an imperfect person who strives to do her best. The other girls are also very fun and cute too.. and the very few guys also do very good jobs supporting the anime. The anime also features lots of laughs and some tears, which is very good for mental health. heh
The last episode was just released on Anime-Eden yesterday. I was sooooooo happy when I saw it.. and after watching it, I have so far no complaints for this anime whatsoever.
The fansub community left this message at the end of the anime, "And life goes on in the most unique game spin-off for the past years. We were all amazed at this wonderful series that created a strong story out of nothing."-Serin Staff(subtitle providers)
You might not understand the last sentence.. Usually, anime series are made according to a manga series, which means it follows the storyline and drawings in the manga. But in this series, there is no manga, no storyline, no art. And yet it was an excellent production nevertheless. I have seen a lot of animes which are based on mangas and yet fail to impress me. But Idolm@ster receives a full, honest 10/10 from me.
Note : I am now watching Evangelion in the Japanese version. It's worst than I expected. The opening song just doesn't get you expecting anything, and the main character is just dull..The only saviour might be Misato.. Well, we'll see how it turns out..
Well, to be truly honest, the main attraction is of course the girls.. The girls are fun and cute, and their pure friendship is just plain beautiful. However, somehow I feel that in this anime, this very special anime, the robots are not left out(unlike in Gundam Series). You feel like you know them very well and understand them. In Gundam, I feel like they're scrap metal.. once defeated, they're just thrown away and replaced.
My personal favourite (Idol) robot, Prometheus 4, codename Tempestas, who only managed to show off his mecha body in 1 episode and got his whole armor fried trying to protect two girls. It is true that the battle scenes are not as cool as in Gundam and other mecha animes. The best battle scenes I have seen yet is in Eureka Seven. However, Idolm@ster covers it well with many unexpected twists and makes you want to see more. Everytime I watch the next episode, just the opening prologue and Opening Song(which is the first one on the player on the right) is enough to get you high with tension and ecstasy.I personally like the Ending Song and First Opening Song, but overall, all 3 songs are very nice and encouraging.
And the main Idol and Idolmaster, Prometheus 1(first Idol found), Imber, and Haruka Amami(the one on the right). Haruka's character is interesting and delightful. A very true and honest role model of an imperfect person who strives to do her best. The other girls are also very fun and cute too.. and the very few guys also do very good jobs supporting the anime. The anime also features lots of laughs and some tears, which is very good for mental health. heh
The last episode was just released on Anime-Eden yesterday. I was sooooooo happy when I saw it.. and after watching it, I have so far no complaints for this anime whatsoever.
The fansub community left this message at the end of the anime, "And life goes on in the most unique game spin-off for the past years. We were all amazed at this wonderful series that created a strong story out of nothing."-Serin Staff(subtitle providers)
You might not understand the last sentence.. Usually, anime series are made according to a manga series, which means it follows the storyline and drawings in the manga. But in this series, there is no manga, no storyline, no art. And yet it was an excellent production nevertheless. I have seen a lot of animes which are based on mangas and yet fail to impress me. But Idolm@ster receives a full, honest 10/10 from me.
Note : I am now watching Evangelion in the Japanese version. It's worst than I expected. The opening song just doesn't get you expecting anything, and the main character is just dull..The only saviour might be Misato.. Well, we'll see how it turns out..
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Sunday, November 25, 2007
あぁあぁ
木曜に聞いた友の言葉を思い出す。「これでもうテスト終わったんじゃないか」って。あぁあぁ。ぜんぜんそんなどころじゃないぞ。むしろ、今週からが本番じゃないか?しかも、レポート二つ完成しなきゃだ。それに、日曜に一級の日本語能力試験の決戦が。。マジ困った。。金曜と土曜に遊びばっかしてた俺はまさに馬鹿だな。。
っていうか、日本語で悩み事?「まあ、いいっか。。」このセリフなんか魅力的。。アイドルマスターの天美春香と弥生ちゃんのセリフですが。。今日アイドルマスターの英語サブ付の最終回ついに公開されました!もちろんインターネットよりダウンロードしてます。そうですね、海賊版かな?でも、そのウェブサイトは合法だと思うね。。まあ、せめてアメリカではね。。サブされたアニメはほとんどサブ供給が許可もらっているし。大丈夫じゃないかな?
「ジョも日本人の彼女作ろうよ」また某氏の言葉の思い出。ふん。。クラスの九人、どうかな?。。なんて。冗談は止そう。確かに日本語を勉強し始めたころには作文で日本で何をしたいかって問題に彼女作りたいって書いた覚えがある。。でもそれはあくまでも他の事が思いつかないからそう書いたんだろうな。
あぁあぁ。。こんな雑談になっちゃてごめんね。。最後にアイドルマスター最終回を見る前に。。「好きな人と一緒になるってそういうことじゃないよ。好きな人と一緒になるって、その人と同じになるんじゃない。。きっとちがうところをお互い見つけていくことなんだよ。だから、わかんないことも、嫌いと思うこともいっぱいあるかもしれない。だけど、きっとそれでいい。」そう、それでいいんだ。
っていうか、日本語で悩み事?「まあ、いいっか。。」このセリフなんか魅力的。。アイドルマスターの天美春香と弥生ちゃんのセリフですが。。今日アイドルマスターの英語サブ付の最終回ついに公開されました!もちろんインターネットよりダウンロードしてます。そうですね、海賊版かな?でも、そのウェブサイトは合法だと思うね。。まあ、せめてアメリカではね。。サブされたアニメはほとんどサブ供給が許可もらっているし。大丈夫じゃないかな?
「ジョも日本人の彼女作ろうよ」また某氏の言葉の思い出。ふん。。クラスの九人、どうかな?。。なんて。冗談は止そう。確かに日本語を勉強し始めたころには作文で日本で何をしたいかって問題に彼女作りたいって書いた覚えがある。。でもそれはあくまでも他の事が思いつかないからそう書いたんだろうな。
あぁあぁ。。こんな雑談になっちゃてごめんね。。最後にアイドルマスター最終回を見る前に。。「好きな人と一緒になるってそういうことじゃないよ。好きな人と一緒になるって、その人と同じになるんじゃない。。きっとちがうところをお互い見つけていくことなんだよ。だから、わかんないことも、嫌いと思うこともいっぱいあるかもしれない。だけど、きっとそれでいい。」そう、それでいいんだ。
Thursday, November 15, 2007
日本語お上手ですね!(Wow, you speak very good Japanese!)
初めてこういう表現を聞いたのはおそらくクラスメートの一人か先生(アベちゃんかMr.やまもと)からだろう。それは4月の初めて群馬高専に踏み始めたころだった。それから、デパートで服を見たりしようとしたら、店員が声をかけてきて、ちょっと返事しただけで、「日本語お上手ですね」とほめてきた。「僕の日本語からすぐ外国人だとわかったのに、日本語が上手って本当?」。僕はまだまだ日本語に自信がなかった。だから、それを日本人の建前ということにしておいた。それで、「いいえ、そんなことないですよ。」といったら、「いや、むしろ日本人より上手だと思いますよ」と。。
それだけではない。夏休みのあいだ、北海道へ行ってきた。いく手はたぶん馬鹿に思われるかもしれないが、青森まで電車でいって、青森からフェリーで函館まで。。本当は新潟から函館までいった方が安くて、ましだったんだけど、新潟がどこか実は知らなかった。でも、そのおかげ、普通電車の乗り換えの長い時間を東北でちょっと散歩ですごせて、よかった。そんな旅で、青森でりんごを買ったんですが、八百屋のばあちゃんと話し合って、友達も自分も「日本語上手だね」ってまたほめられた。でも、それは青森の方言にも関係するのだろう。関東の日本人の日本語たぶんわからないから。。北海道に行っても何回かほめられた。全部建前としてしておいたんですが。。
今はまたるうさんにほめられて、考え改めた。1回目は建前だと思ってたんだ。。本当ごめん。でも今回はうれしかった。この7ヶ月間で確かに日本語が成長してきたと初めて思った。うん、日本語の勉強を始めたころからずっとアニメを見て日本語を覚えたと思っていた。しかし、実際に人と話して、一人一人の話し方に慣れなきゃ、日本語を覚えたとしても意味はない。だから、クラスメート達や、先生方のおかげさまで、日本語がだんだんよくなってきたと思う。
ところが、ときどきクラスのみなと話しているとき、とまどうことがある。それはちょっと悔しい。でも、自分はもともと話すことが苦手な方だから、自分の母語でも。。だから、これからもがんばる。みなさんとよく話せるように。。最後に、るうにちゃんと礼を言いたい。ありがとう!これからもよろしくね!
るうへ。。そうですね。。日本のブログはだいたい次の公開であいとうするよね。。るうの英語上手って言いたいものの、言えなくてごめんね。でも、実は他の高専の学生よりは上手だと思うよ。他の高専の英語の授業の話聞いたら、びっくりするよ!まるで幼稚園みたい!飯野先生の授業まだましだ。マレーシアでは女は英語が直されたら、嫌がるらしいんですけど、るうはどうだろう? "I am glad that I heard your opinion" か "I am glad that I could hear your opinion"が正しいと思うね。。でも頑張ったからとりあえずほめます。 ^。^ 宗教は難しいよね。。今は正直宗教に自信がなくなってきたの。宗教はいつも戦争とか争いのため利用されて、とても悲しいものだ。結婚はずっと先だから、いいっか。はい、あいとう終わり。。
Okay, so I won't be translating the whole thing.. I'll just rewrite the post in English..
The first time I heard a Japanese tell me "Wow, you speak very good Japanese!" was probably from one of my classmates, or one of my teachers.. Other than that, there was once when I went to a departmental store and was window-shopping when the shopkeeper came and talked to me. I answered with a few words of Japanese, and then came the words..*rolls eyes* Although he knew that I'm a foreigner just from the way I speak Japanese, he still spilled those words.. I mean, if my Japanese were that good, he wouldn't notice that I'm a foreigner, right? That's why I remembered my teacher's saying that Japanese like to put on a show and praise people even though they don't really mean it.Everytime I try to humble myself, they say "Nah, I think your Japanese is better than most Japanese". What kind of irony is that?
That's not all.. During the summer holiday, I went to Hokkaido, and it was the same..We took the long route, and when we stopped at Aomori to buy apples, the auntie selling the apples praised our Japanese too..Well, they do have dialects up there, so maybe she just didn't know the way the Japanese near Tokyo speak.. When we were travelling in Hokkaido, it was the same.. A lot of Japanese praised our Japanese.. The irony..
And now, again, my Japanese friend praised my Japanese. The first time, I put it off as their habit of praising again.. I'm sorry about that.. But this time, I felt happy to be praised..For the first time, I thought, my Japanese has indeed improved ever since I came in April. Since I started studying Japanese, I have thought that watching animes has been the one thing that made my Japanese better. But then again, I realized, if you don't speak to anyone and get used to their way of speech, in the end, it doesn't mean a thing.. So, thank God that I have my classmates and teachers who always patiently listen and talk to me..
But still, sometimes when I talk to them, I become lost and can't find the words.. That hurts me a bit.. Well, actually, I'm not really good at talking anyways, even in my own language.. That is why, I will continue to fight on to improve my Japanese and speaking skills to be able to talk to them smoothly. Finally, I would like to thank little Miss Ruu who kindly praised my Japanese.
それだけではない。夏休みのあいだ、北海道へ行ってきた。いく手はたぶん馬鹿に思われるかもしれないが、青森まで電車でいって、青森からフェリーで函館まで。。本当は新潟から函館までいった方が安くて、ましだったんだけど、新潟がどこか実は知らなかった。でも、そのおかげ、普通電車の乗り換えの長い時間を東北でちょっと散歩ですごせて、よかった。そんな旅で、青森でりんごを買ったんですが、八百屋のばあちゃんと話し合って、友達も自分も「日本語上手だね」ってまたほめられた。でも、それは青森の方言にも関係するのだろう。関東の日本人の日本語たぶんわからないから。。北海道に行っても何回かほめられた。全部建前としてしておいたんですが。。
今はまたるうさんにほめられて、考え改めた。1回目は建前だと思ってたんだ。。本当ごめん。でも今回はうれしかった。この7ヶ月間で確かに日本語が成長してきたと初めて思った。うん、日本語の勉強を始めたころからずっとアニメを見て日本語を覚えたと思っていた。しかし、実際に人と話して、一人一人の話し方に慣れなきゃ、日本語を覚えたとしても意味はない。だから、クラスメート達や、先生方のおかげさまで、日本語がだんだんよくなってきたと思う。
ところが、ときどきクラスのみなと話しているとき、とまどうことがある。それはちょっと悔しい。でも、自分はもともと話すことが苦手な方だから、自分の母語でも。。だから、これからもがんばる。みなさんとよく話せるように。。最後に、るうにちゃんと礼を言いたい。ありがとう!これからもよろしくね!
るうへ。。そうですね。。日本のブログはだいたい次の公開であいとうするよね。。るうの英語上手って言いたいものの、言えなくてごめんね。でも、実は他の高専の学生よりは上手だと思うよ。他の高専の英語の授業の話聞いたら、びっくりするよ!まるで幼稚園みたい!飯野先生の授業まだましだ。マレーシアでは女は英語が直されたら、嫌がるらしいんですけど、るうはどうだろう? "I am glad that I heard your opinion" か "I am glad that I could hear your opinion"が正しいと思うね。。でも頑張ったからとりあえずほめます。 ^。^ 宗教は難しいよね。。今は正直宗教に自信がなくなってきたの。宗教はいつも戦争とか争いのため利用されて、とても悲しいものだ。結婚はずっと先だから、いいっか。はい、あいとう終わり。。
Okay, so I won't be translating the whole thing.. I'll just rewrite the post in English..
The first time I heard a Japanese tell me "Wow, you speak very good Japanese!" was probably from one of my classmates, or one of my teachers.. Other than that, there was once when I went to a departmental store and was window-shopping when the shopkeeper came and talked to me. I answered with a few words of Japanese, and then came the words..*rolls eyes* Although he knew that I'm a foreigner just from the way I speak Japanese, he still spilled those words.. I mean, if my Japanese were that good, he wouldn't notice that I'm a foreigner, right? That's why I remembered my teacher's saying that Japanese like to put on a show and praise people even though they don't really mean it.Everytime I try to humble myself, they say "Nah, I think your Japanese is better than most Japanese". What kind of irony is that?
That's not all.. During the summer holiday, I went to Hokkaido, and it was the same..We took the long route, and when we stopped at Aomori to buy apples, the auntie selling the apples praised our Japanese too..Well, they do have dialects up there, so maybe she just didn't know the way the Japanese near Tokyo speak.. When we were travelling in Hokkaido, it was the same.. A lot of Japanese praised our Japanese.. The irony..
And now, again, my Japanese friend praised my Japanese. The first time, I put it off as their habit of praising again.. I'm sorry about that.. But this time, I felt happy to be praised..For the first time, I thought, my Japanese has indeed improved ever since I came in April. Since I started studying Japanese, I have thought that watching animes has been the one thing that made my Japanese better. But then again, I realized, if you don't speak to anyone and get used to their way of speech, in the end, it doesn't mean a thing.. So, thank God that I have my classmates and teachers who always patiently listen and talk to me..
But still, sometimes when I talk to them, I become lost and can't find the words.. That hurts me a bit.. Well, actually, I'm not really good at talking anyways, even in my own language.. That is why, I will continue to fight on to improve my Japanese and speaking skills to be able to talk to them smoothly. Finally, I would like to thank little Miss Ruu who kindly praised my Japanese.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
恋って?愛って?
友達のブログでコメントを書こうとしたら、こんな長い文章になっちゃった。恋って話ですが、やっぱり僕は理想の恋なんてちょっと無理だと思う。一生ずっと一人をすきでいるというのは難しい。
それから、恋ってなんなんだろうってこともある。僕はそれについて考えて、キリスト教の中で探って見た。恋は三種類に分けられているそうです。一つ目は両親や家族への愛、2つ目は恋人同士や夫婦の愛、3つ目は一番純粋で、永遠の神の愛(英語では agape という)。この中では永遠に続く愛は一つしかない、いわゆる神の愛。そして、変なキリスト教らしい本を読んで、その神の愛を得たという人たちがいるそうだ。それに、その愛が世の中全てを見通す力を持ってるそうだ。しかしこの愛を得るため、自分を見捨ててただ全世界を愛するようにならなきゃならない。これが理想の恋かしら。でも、その本にはちょっと違和感を感じた。キリスト教と全く違うものを教えている。でも仏教か道教の瞑想にも似てるかな。全は個、個は全、という。ごめんね、わけのわかんない話しちゃって。。
まあ、そういうわけで、僕はもう愛か恋が何なんだろうということもよくわからないの。でも、僕はこう考える。好きというのは自分が決めること。心も体も自分のものだから。恋もそうだ。気持ちだけで何もうまない。行動して、ちゃんと「好きだ」って気持ちが伝わらなきゃ意味はない。でも、気持ちももちろん重要。難しいですね。。
結婚するんだったら、条件は自分がずっと彼女のそばにいられることに自信があるのが前提。結婚後はどきどきとかラブラブの気持ちが衰えるのは当然。だから、好きでなくても一緒に死まで歩いていける、ラブラブでなくても互いのぬくもりで心が安心できる、そういう関係が欲しい。
僕には永遠の愛とか理想の恋なんて要らない。僕の手には届けそうもないのだから。ただ、一人ぼっちで寂しいのは嫌。だから、いつか、そんな僕がずっとそばにいてあげられる相手を探したい。
それから、恋ってなんなんだろうってこともある。僕はそれについて考えて、キリスト教の中で探って見た。恋は三種類に分けられているそうです。一つ目は両親や家族への愛、2つ目は恋人同士や夫婦の愛、3つ目は一番純粋で、永遠の神の愛(英語では agape という)。この中では永遠に続く愛は一つしかない、いわゆる神の愛。そして、変なキリスト教らしい本を読んで、その神の愛を得たという人たちがいるそうだ。それに、その愛が世の中全てを見通す力を持ってるそうだ。しかしこの愛を得るため、自分を見捨ててただ全世界を愛するようにならなきゃならない。これが理想の恋かしら。でも、その本にはちょっと違和感を感じた。キリスト教と全く違うものを教えている。でも仏教か道教の瞑想にも似てるかな。全は個、個は全、という。ごめんね、わけのわかんない話しちゃって。。
まあ、そういうわけで、僕はもう愛か恋が何なんだろうということもよくわからないの。でも、僕はこう考える。好きというのは自分が決めること。心も体も自分のものだから。恋もそうだ。気持ちだけで何もうまない。行動して、ちゃんと「好きだ」って気持ちが伝わらなきゃ意味はない。でも、気持ちももちろん重要。難しいですね。。
結婚するんだったら、条件は自分がずっと彼女のそばにいられることに自信があるのが前提。結婚後はどきどきとかラブラブの気持ちが衰えるのは当然。だから、好きでなくても一緒に死まで歩いていける、ラブラブでなくても互いのぬくもりで心が安心できる、そういう関係が欲しい。
僕には永遠の愛とか理想の恋なんて要らない。僕の手には届けそうもないのだから。ただ、一人ぼっちで寂しいのは嫌。だから、いつか、そんな僕がずっとそばにいてあげられる相手を探したい。
Sunday, November 11, 2007
秋ですか?Is it autumn?
Yes, it's autumn..The temperature is around 12 to 15 degrees celsius and the maple leaves and watever leaves are all turning red and yellow and orange and falling down like crazy..
Unlike Calvin who had to steal a picture from Ming Rong, I post my own picture.. This is a picture of the small road beside my hostel.. Like the red? heh..
Like I said, I would be updating.. this is a picture of the road going out of my school through the main gate.. I think you notice the yellow-leaved trees.. I think those are 唐松, larch trees. My senior said the yellow leaves are Gunma's specialty.. not that sure about that, but usually ppl see red leaves nia.. heh.. yellow is nice too.. =)
Oh, and because it rained a bit yesterday, the sky is sooooo blue today.. heh.. Never saw such a blue sky in Malaysia, as much as I remember..
Conclusion: You don't have to go to a park to feel autumn!
Saturday, November 10, 2007
A Crazy-Long tag
LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR
1. The new Ipod Touch
2. A Mitsuoka Orochi
3. A free return ticket to Europe
4. A free return ticket to Australia
5. Lots and lots of Kyoho grapes!! >.<
THE PERSON WHO TAGG-ED YOU IS
Sharon Chong, etto.. chotto uzai shoujo... ^^ soreni, cosplay zuki de, a, mou hatachi da ne.... hehhe
YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER
1. yappa uzai
2. a bit hyper for a girl (which is nice)
3. easy to like (nobody wouldn't want to be her friend)
4. lovesick (like most girls are)
5. cute/pretty (really? dono.. depends on ppl..)
MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU
err.. umm.. etto.... I think we played "chat" with pieces of paper in maths tuition, like, 5 years ago?? heh.. that was funny.. ^^;
THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE HAS SAID TO YOU
hmmm.. i have bad memory.. >.<
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER , YOU WILL
err.. dowan.. i might run to Hokkaido and never go back.. ^^
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER , THEY HAVE TO IMPROVE ON WILL BE
er.. that's her choice, but like i said, DOWAN.
IF HE/SHE BECOME YOUR ENEMY , YOU WILL
try to be friends with her again. Cause i think we do not deserve to be enermies.(same as her answer) but if she had a gun pointed at me, I think I won't hesitate pulling out my own Desert Eagle.. heh..
IF HE/SHE BECOME YOUR ENEMY , THE REASON WILL BE
hmm.. I'm a jerk, so the reason could be anything.. hehe
PASS THIS QUIZ TO 1O PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU
1. Fabian Moa(no need to write twice tho)
2. Keith Kueh
3. Elissa Ing
4. Chern Lyan
5. Aricka
6. Calvin Ong
7. Lim Ming Rong
8. Chang Yuan
9. Cedric Chin
10. Tang Yii
1. WHO IS NO.7 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
wahhhhhhhh so chun i put his name..... haha.. bikkuri shita.. I no need to say everyone also know lar.. hehe.. Jong Kai Ning .. wooohoooo
2. WHO IS NO.9 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
Aiya should have put Calvin there.. haha.. Cedric ar.. i think he said he broke up with his m'sian gf.. so now i donno lar he got or not..
3. IF NO.9 and NO.10 ARE TOGETHER , WILL IT BE A GOOD THING ?
HAHHAHAHA... I don't have anything to say.... lol...
4. WHAT ABOUT NO.1 and NO.5 ?
Err.. I wouldn't forgive Fabby if he did the same thing again.. ^^
5. WHAT IS NO.3 STUDYING ?
Etto.. Unimas? arghhh sorry if it's wrong.... wahhhhh.. lol..
6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOUS CHATT-ED WITH NO.6 ?
last week i think.. he visits my blog quite often i think.. anyways, he's too lovey dovey to care about me lar.. heheh
7. DOES NO.4 WORK ?
err.. she likes to work parttime to get money for shopping and stuff.. hehhe..
8. DOES NO.8 HAVE ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL ?
Haha.. this tag is too personal.. u think I stalker ar??
9. WILL YOU WOO NO.8 ?
I'm not gay
10. HOW ABOUT NO.5 ?
Err.. maybe? haha.. kindergarten friend.. so long din see her lor..
11. DOES NO2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS ?
Like I said, too personal.. he has a little brother.. I think that's all.. err.. that's all I've met anyways..
12. HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO.3 AND NO.4 ?
No 3 was friendly at high school, so got to know her through badminton and internet..No 4 was my classmate at primary school.. actually didnt remember her.. lol..
13. WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT ?
Kuching! Cat City!
14. HOW YOUS GET TO KNOW NO.2 ?
High school classmate.. Why are we jumping? ^^;
15. IS NO.5 SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD ?
er.. no.. but she's quite sexy.. heh
1. The new Ipod Touch
2. A Mitsuoka Orochi
3. A free return ticket to Europe
4. A free return ticket to Australia
5. Lots and lots of Kyoho grapes!! >.<
THE PERSON WHO TAGG-ED YOU IS
Sharon Chong, etto.. chotto uzai shoujo... ^^ soreni, cosplay zuki de, a, mou hatachi da ne.... hehhe
YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER
1. yappa uzai
2. a bit hyper for a girl (which is nice)
3. easy to like (nobody wouldn't want to be her friend)
4. lovesick (like most girls are)
5. cute/pretty (really? dono.. depends on ppl..)
MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU
err.. umm.. etto.... I think we played "chat" with pieces of paper in maths tuition, like, 5 years ago?? heh.. that was funny.. ^^;
THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE HAS SAID TO YOU
hmmm.. i have bad memory.. >.<
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER , YOU WILL
err.. dowan.. i might run to Hokkaido and never go back.. ^^
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER , THEY HAVE TO IMPROVE ON WILL BE
er.. that's her choice, but like i said, DOWAN.
IF HE/SHE BECOME YOUR ENEMY , YOU WILL
try to be friends with her again. Cause i think we do not deserve to be enermies.(same as her answer) but if she had a gun pointed at me, I think I won't hesitate pulling out my own Desert Eagle.. heh..
IF HE/SHE BECOME YOUR ENEMY , THE REASON WILL BE
hmm.. I'm a jerk, so the reason could be anything.. hehe
PASS THIS QUIZ TO 1O PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU
1. Fabian Moa(no need to write twice tho)
2. Keith Kueh
3. Elissa Ing
4. Chern Lyan
5. Aricka
6. Calvin Ong
7. Lim Ming Rong
8. Chang Yuan
9. Cedric Chin
10. Tang Yii
1. WHO IS NO.7 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
wahhhhhhhh so chun i put his name..... haha.. bikkuri shita.. I no need to say everyone also know lar.. hehe.. Jong Kai Ning .. wooohoooo
2. WHO IS NO.9 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
Aiya should have put Calvin there.. haha.. Cedric ar.. i think he said he broke up with his m'sian gf.. so now i donno lar he got or not..
3. IF NO.9 and NO.10 ARE TOGETHER , WILL IT BE A GOOD THING ?
HAHHAHAHA... I don't have anything to say.... lol...
4. WHAT ABOUT NO.1 and NO.5 ?
Err.. I wouldn't forgive Fabby if he did the same thing again.. ^^
5. WHAT IS NO.3 STUDYING ?
Etto.. Unimas? arghhh sorry if it's wrong.... wahhhhh.. lol..
6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOUS CHATT-ED WITH NO.6 ?
last week i think.. he visits my blog quite often i think.. anyways, he's too lovey dovey to care about me lar.. heheh
7. DOES NO.4 WORK ?
err.. she likes to work parttime to get money for shopping and stuff.. hehhe..
8. DOES NO.8 HAVE ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL ?
Haha.. this tag is too personal.. u think I stalker ar??
9. WILL YOU WOO NO.8 ?
I'm not gay
10. HOW ABOUT NO.5 ?
Err.. maybe? haha.. kindergarten friend.. so long din see her lor..
11. DOES NO2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS ?
Like I said, too personal.. he has a little brother.. I think that's all.. err.. that's all I've met anyways..
12. HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO.3 AND NO.4 ?
No 3 was friendly at high school, so got to know her through badminton and internet..No 4 was my classmate at primary school.. actually didnt remember her.. lol..
13. WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT ?
Kuching! Cat City!
14. HOW YOUS GET TO KNOW NO.2 ?
High school classmate.. Why are we jumping? ^^;
15. IS NO.5 SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD ?
er.. no.. but she's quite sexy.. heh
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